Am I just someone that exist in the small corner in your life?
Am I just someone that people can that use and dispose off?
Am I, just a someone in this world that just die off and no one will really notice?
-Regards of what will happen, someone will never abandon, that is what true friendship is-
Friday, September 2, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
All ends in misery
I'm done, I don't care about my dream and future anymore. All I can do for now is just live. Live without a purpose, because a purpose cost a fortune, and that is what I lack. Sorry but, I'm just a shitty guy.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Poker faces
I take up violin, and people started to second guess whether I am really into violin. That was 2 years ago, now I'm still playing violin like everyday.
I took part in singing competition, because I like it, and I wont hide it the fact that I'm actually good. But these days, if you don't look good, you're shit in everything. Yeah, that's right. Today, the quote Don't judge the book by it's cover is totally the opposite.
People these days are just to materialistic, they don't care about what they like or what they can do, all they care is good looks, good fortune and etcs. I also won't deny that I do care about good looks, only that because it affects my scores in life. People often looked down on me because of my figure and trust me, I don't look easy in the face. Which is why most people won't even talk to me.
It's just sad to say this but, I can't survive in a society that lives on lies and fake emotion, poker faces on each people I know. It's just sad.
I took part in singing competition, because I like it, and I wont hide it the fact that I'm actually good. But these days, if you don't look good, you're shit in everything. Yeah, that's right. Today, the quote Don't judge the book by it's cover is totally the opposite.
People these days are just to materialistic, they don't care about what they like or what they can do, all they care is good looks, good fortune and etcs. I also won't deny that I do care about good looks, only that because it affects my scores in life. People often looked down on me because of my figure and trust me, I don't look easy in the face. Which is why most people won't even talk to me.
It's just sad to say this but, I can't survive in a society that lives on lies and fake emotion, poker faces on each people I know. It's just sad.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Hope, fall apart.
I was like, so going to be myself again, but it's not going to happen too soon. Many people are like pouring cold water at me, they're not responsive, every time i tried to talk to them, the entire conversation stop with a 'Oo.' or even 'Okay.' What the hell? Hey I am trying to become who I used to be, a happy go lucky dude with no worries and here yet you guys just ignore me. Hell man.....Hell.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Love, Despair
To fall in love is the most wonderful thing that ever happen to me. I was on cloud 9, no much higher than that. I was among the stars that glitter brightly in the night void. I was like the moon, but all that change. When I know, that I was wrong. Not only I made a dreadful mistake, I ended up breaking the friendship bond. Right now, I can't even have a look at her. I'm poignant, yet in the same time at livid state. I like her, but in the same time, felt disgust of her.
How can love turn into something like this...?
How can love turn into something like this...?
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Solitude
Being alone is not much of a problem.
Not until when I had friends. Thats is when everything went wrong.
Being alone is a problem now.
I can't stand the loneliness.
I can't hang on without them.
I put my life on the line for them.
But from what I can see with my very own eyes.
I don't exist in their memories.
Being alone is now okay for me, cause now I know.
Not until when I had friends. Thats is when everything went wrong.
Being alone is a problem now.
I can't stand the loneliness.
I can't hang on without them.
I put my life on the line for them.
But from what I can see with my very own eyes.
I don't exist in their memories.
Being alone is now okay for me, cause now I know.
"To be forgotten is worst than death"-FFIX Freya The dragon knight-
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Road of life
That I had once said to myself, care for others, then care for yourself.
Although that was what I though other would think the same. But now I see, not all humans think like that. All and what they care is for themselves. It may be important to care for your own well being before you could take care of others but what will you do if you are taking care of yourself in the same time, causing a mess for others?
Do you not think that way?
Do you even try to think for a second that the person that you ignore take your place?
Will you feel what they feel when you did NOT did anything for them? Or perhaps even causing them to feel bad?
From my point of view, most of us don't think that way.
You say you care of others, but one simple act speaks way louder then the words you spoke. You think that things goes on without you being involve or not. You think that the more you ignore the lesser trouble you'll get yourself into.
You think that letting thing the way it does and not even want to have a guts to try to fix things, that YOUR own life would be better. THAT is exactly what you think. I know, cause I'm once thought of the same way. I thought that if I can just leave things the way there are they wont get bad. But I was dreadfully wrong. If I don't move, no one will. If I didn't help put, NO one will. In the end, I am always the one who did the things no one could ever thought off. Simple acts could bring a whole world down because of one small chain reaction it started. Things will always make a turn of the worst, and most of the time, I would take the blame. I won't mind if and only if I was the one who ended up breaking things. But still, if I were to think like others and ignore the smallest things, I will be like digging my own grave.
In the end, I have to do it, because no one will.
Thats all.
-For you, who always being arrogant and ignorance-
Although that was what I though other would think the same. But now I see, not all humans think like that. All and what they care is for themselves. It may be important to care for your own well being before you could take care of others but what will you do if you are taking care of yourself in the same time, causing a mess for others?
Do you not think that way?
Do you even try to think for a second that the person that you ignore take your place?
Will you feel what they feel when you did NOT did anything for them? Or perhaps even causing them to feel bad?
From my point of view, most of us don't think that way.
You say you care of others, but one simple act speaks way louder then the words you spoke. You think that things goes on without you being involve or not. You think that the more you ignore the lesser trouble you'll get yourself into.
You think that letting thing the way it does and not even want to have a guts to try to fix things, that YOUR own life would be better. THAT is exactly what you think. I know, cause I'm once thought of the same way. I thought that if I can just leave things the way there are they wont get bad. But I was dreadfully wrong. If I don't move, no one will. If I didn't help put, NO one will. In the end, I am always the one who did the things no one could ever thought off. Simple acts could bring a whole world down because of one small chain reaction it started. Things will always make a turn of the worst, and most of the time, I would take the blame. I won't mind if and only if I was the one who ended up breaking things. But still, if I were to think like others and ignore the smallest things, I will be like digging my own grave.
In the end, I have to do it, because no one will.
Thats all.
-For you, who always being arrogant and ignorance-
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