Auguries of Love

Like summer, like winter, as the season sway;
Just like my heart, that beats away;
So sorrow, so lonely, I filled with them;
and no longer I feel the sunlight of warm.

The door open and you came in the mid year;
and I was dreaming, over the wasted tears;
Like an angel, you glimmer and shine;
Just like the feeling of a relaxing wine.

And then you left me, with a hope of joy;
Feeling of hope, and the memories of the boy;
And 2 years I left, the town I grew;
No longer the same, everything went blue.

I've lost hope, the time I knew;
Your were happy, and I am still true;
For love and passion, you feel for him;
And all the light I see will always be dim.

I was sad and heart broken, for something that wasn't belonged;
I can't even hold on to you, the girl that I always longed;
You were the first, the one that melt my heart;
And the last that I have open to thou art.

As always, no one can understand my love to you;
Even I myself, can't seems to know what I knew,
Ashamed, disappointment is now what I am;
and so it began my whole life's damn.

Love? Like? Or perhaps just a feeling of appreciation?

Lately, I've been thinking alot. Well, actually, I've always been thinking alot. Only that what I'm thinking only makes things even complicated that it is were.

It has been 2 months(?). 2 months since I've meet her. 12 months since I meet her and 4 years since I've meet her. 6 years ago, I meet this girl and we talk. 12 years ago, we meet.

6 girls that affect my life.

I don't really know what makes me feels like this..
Surely...someday I'll fall in love with someone....
Or...
I'm confuse. Do I like her..? Or do I love her? Or perhaps only a feeling of appreciation...

Time will tell.
I hope so.

Nuisance

People around you are constantly educates you will new knowledge. Be grateful that they even have the thought of sharing their piece of mind. But what did you do..?
You ignored them completely.
You complain.
You raise your voice.
You stand your ground.
For being stupid.
Let's be clear, I'm good enough not to directly confront you, if I would I don't think that you even have the chance to debate about it. Your attitude sucks, your heart is full of dirt. You won't stop taking advantage of your own friends. Have I even ask your assistance? Even once..? No. I don't think so. Yet you just keep bugging me around that not even houseflies do.

-Your entire existence is just another vexation in my life-

The kind of Human traits

I won't say that it's his/her fault to be self-centered. I won't blame him/her for being an asshole. I'll just pity their friends, if they have any.
I'm a man, who can accept anyone easily, but sadly, I can't really reject someone.
Being a FRIEND is like, having a new family member. You don't just go and ruin it all by being a jerk. Who care if you're the eldest in your real family, who cares if you're the only son, when your in a new friend circle, don't try to act all high and mighty when you aren't at all.



-Fuck off S.O.B, go find another place to bark the shit out of you-

Assiduous and it's remuneration

Some people had in their mind, thinking that working harder will at least make them smarter. I'm talking about studies, if you know what I meant.
Ah...yes..the word 'study' sure digs up all sort of complain to certain types of people, I can say so myself.
Let's cut to the chase, no matter how hard you study, it just wouldn't cut it, and in my own honest opinion, some of you would agree to this. There is approximately 900 pages in a textbook and only 5~6 pages in Finals Test. They would probably pick out 3~5 chapter of the 30 chapter that we are suppose to work our brains out.

To wrap things up, I did, diligently tried my best.

The king without a throne

I wouldn't want to brag but...a few months back, I went a a Siamese temple in penang. That temple is famous for it's fortune telling. I twist the clock and it landed on a number which determines my fate for life. After that, I took my number and showed it to the monk. He explain this to me

"Young man, you are a special person. Very few have god gave them this number for that this number only belongs to those who have a dark future. But you are different. God have set a unchangeable destiny for people that no matter how they struggle, fate will always find them.
Listen to me young man, only a few have this and you are one of the very lucky ones. God has allowed you, an extraordinary soul, to set his own destiny and to create his own fate. And remember this, in every darkest moment, that is where you shine the brightest"

The words shook me.
And from that day onwards, I did not blame god for any difficulties I face. All I can do, is face them like a man, and a man, is what I wanted to be.

Last Resort

Am I just someone that exist in the small corner in your life?
Am I just someone that people can that use and dispose off?
Am I, just a someone in this world that just die off and no one will really notice?




-Regards of what will happen, someone will never abandon, that is what true friendship is-