All ends in misery

I'm done, I don't care about my dream and future anymore. All I can do for now is just live. Live without a purpose, because a purpose cost a fortune, and that is what I lack. Sorry but, I'm just a shitty guy.

Poker faces

I take up violin, and people started to second guess whether I am really into violin. That was 2 years ago, now I'm still playing violin like everyday.

I took part in singing competition, because I like it, and I wont hide it the fact that I'm actually good. But these days, if you don't look good, you're shit in everything. Yeah, that's right. Today, the quote Don't judge the book by it's cover is totally the opposite.

People these days are just to materialistic, they don't care about what they like or what they can do, all they care is good looks, good fortune and etcs. I also won't deny that I do care about good looks, only that because it affects my scores in life. People often looked down on me because of my figure and trust me, I don't look easy in the face. Which is why most people won't even talk to me.

It's just sad to say this but, I can't survive in a society that lives on lies and fake emotion, poker faces on each people I know. It's just sad.

Hope, fall apart.

I was like, so going to be myself again, but it's not going to happen too soon. Many people are like pouring cold water at me, they're not responsive, every time i tried to talk to them, the entire conversation stop with a 'Oo.' or even 'Okay.' What the hell? Hey I am trying to become who I used to be, a happy go lucky dude with no worries and here yet you guys just ignore me. Hell man.....Hell.

Love, Despair

To fall in love is the most wonderful thing that ever happen to me. I was on cloud 9, no much higher than that. I was among the stars that glitter brightly in the night void. I was like the moon, but all that change. When I know, that I was wrong. Not only I made a dreadful mistake, I ended up breaking the friendship bond. Right now, I can't even have a look at her. I'm poignant, yet in the same time at livid state. I like her, but in the same time, felt disgust of her.

How can love turn into something like this...?