Solitude

Being alone is not much of a problem.
Not until when I had friends. Thats is when everything went wrong.
Being alone is a problem now.
I can't stand the loneliness.
I can't hang on without them.
I put my life on the line for them.
But from what I can see with my very own eyes.
I don't exist in their memories.

Being alone is now okay for me, cause now I know.

"To be forgotten is worst than death"

-FFIX Freya The dragon knight-

Road of life

That I had once said to myself, care for others, then care for yourself.
Although that was what I though other would think the same. But now I see, not all humans think like that. All and what they care is for themselves. It may be important to care for your own well being before you could take care of others but what will you do if you are taking care of yourself in the same time, causing a mess for others?
Do you not think that way?
Do you even try to think for a second that the person that you ignore take your place?
Will you feel what they feel when you did NOT did anything for them? Or perhaps even causing them to feel bad?
From my point of view, most of us don't think that way.
You say you care of others, but one simple act speaks way louder then the words you spoke. You think that things goes on without you being involve or not. You think that the more you ignore the lesser trouble you'll get yourself into.
You think that letting thing the way it does and not even want to have a guts to try to fix things, that YOUR own life would be better. THAT is exactly what you think. I know, cause I'm once thought of the same way. I thought that if I can just leave things the way there are they wont get bad. But I was dreadfully wrong. If I don't move, no one will. If I didn't help put, NO one will. In the end, I am always the one who did the things no one could ever thought off. Simple acts could bring a whole world down because of one small chain reaction it started. Things will always make a turn of the worst, and most of the time, I would take the blame. I won't mind if and only if I was the one who ended up breaking things. But still, if I were to think like others and ignore the smallest things, I will be like digging my own grave.
In the end, I have to do it, because no one will.
Thats all.


-For you, who always being arrogant and ignorance-

Choices

We are making them everyday, every minutes, every second in our mind whether to determine which path to walk on. No one said that choices are hard to make, but only the doubt in your hard that stated that. Life goes on, no matter what choice you make, of course there will be a better over the other choices that you made but still, life goes on, whether or not it will wait for you to make that choice. No one is that to make you choose, we can only help you decide and influence you to make choices, in the end, the one who take the pick is still you. I'm not here to frighten you to pick your path, I'm here just to say that, no matter what path you made, stick to it, and don't look back. You made that choice and you walk. Path is not something that we can just imitate others. Yes, surely you can follow others people paths. Imagine that in a forest of undiscovered lands. Each step you took will create a path behind you, it may be tough and harsh but you will know when it is good for you. Walking someone else's path will not only make you a fool, but also a stupid person who will never learn anything from life. Finally is it whether up to you to choose your steps and to create your own path. Walk the path of life and be proud of it. Meeting obstacle is always a common thing, that is when you must, alter your steps. Obstacles such as, dreams, wants and finally the most powerful influence any human can never withstand, Love. Alter your steps and walk together with her. That would be made clear, you will walk together.



-In remembrance of my best friend-
Choose wisely, no matter what the outcome will be, I am here, as will be, always will be.

3th May 2011

Several days after the dreadful night in a Oxford house, I finally moved into my new home. It's nice, it's cozy, it's cool, it's warm and it doesn't not have internet for the moment. Thats how I wasn't able to update myself these days. Okay, now since I'm at the McD, I got this McD Coca Cola can glass meal which coast rm 15. A normal meal cost 7.95.....Such expensive..Meh anyway 2days to go to my next exam which is cell Biology the paper that is known to kill many Bio course related student.

25th April 2011

2nd night in Lance's house. Feels a little awkward not staying in my own house. But meh~~ As long as things goes well, I'll be moving into my new home at harvard.

I finally able to say the only negative word that causes benefits , NO.

My life be like Uuuuu Ahhhh, Uuuuu Ahhhh

My life be like Uuuuu Ahhhh, Uuuuu Ahhhh~~~~~~~~~~

23th April 2011

Always remember on what you do will effect the future. Think two steps ahead is very effective.

I promise, I swear I will never ever lie to you ever again.