Anonymous

Probably no one reads my blog, which is why I can safely post anything I want, including my health status.

Doctors said my rib cages are now in weak state. Two of them, the ones that protects my heart are broken. At least now I understand those fighter felt when they got punch really bad.

Doctors told me I need at least 6 months to fully recover.
I shook my head and said. 2 months.
At least, if there is no internal bleeding occur.

Rejection and Acceptance

Went ahead and left you there.
Just like from when you abandon,
your conscience,
your feelings.

Forward, you went against,
For people who stay together,
You disperse,
You disappear.

But, we were there,
Together.
You left,
We follow your trails,
You went to the dark,
We turn the lights on.

In the end,
We are all friends,
What remains is our memory,
For what that seems the most precious of all.

Remember that,
My Friend.
I might forgot your name,
I might forgot your face,
But what remains in the corner of my mind,
Is that I once had a Friend,
No matter who he is.

Chrono

It's not enough. It's never enough. When you got some, you tend to want even more. And then, when you have the most. You just don't know what to do with it. But now, I just don't have any. 時間、それはいないものです・

Auguries of Love

Like summer, like winter, as the season sway;
Just like my heart, that beats away;
So sorrow, so lonely, I filled with them;
and no longer I feel the sunlight of warm.

The door open and you came in the mid year;
and I was dreaming, over the wasted tears;
Like an angel, you glimmer and shine;
Just like the feeling of a relaxing wine.

And then you left me, with a hope of joy;
Feeling of hope, and the memories of the boy;
And 2 years I left, the town I grew;
No longer the same, everything went blue.

I've lost hope, the time I knew;
Your were happy, and I am still true;
For love and passion, you feel for him;
And all the light I see will always be dim.

I was sad and heart broken, for something that wasn't belonged;
I can't even hold on to you, the girl that I always longed;
You were the first, the one that melt my heart;
And the last that I have open to thou art.

As always, no one can understand my love to you;
Even I myself, can't seems to know what I knew,
Ashamed, disappointment is now what I am;
and so it began my whole life's damn.

Love? Like? Or perhaps just a feeling of appreciation?

Lately, I've been thinking alot. Well, actually, I've always been thinking alot. Only that what I'm thinking only makes things even complicated that it is were.

It has been 2 months(?). 2 months since I've meet her. 12 months since I meet her and 4 years since I've meet her. 6 years ago, I meet this girl and we talk. 12 years ago, we meet.

6 girls that affect my life.

I don't really know what makes me feels like this..
Surely...someday I'll fall in love with someone....
Or...
I'm confuse. Do I like her..? Or do I love her? Or perhaps only a feeling of appreciation...

Time will tell.
I hope so.

Nuisance

People around you are constantly educates you will new knowledge. Be grateful that they even have the thought of sharing their piece of mind. But what did you do..?
You ignored them completely.
You complain.
You raise your voice.
You stand your ground.
For being stupid.
Let's be clear, I'm good enough not to directly confront you, if I would I don't think that you even have the chance to debate about it. Your attitude sucks, your heart is full of dirt. You won't stop taking advantage of your own friends. Have I even ask your assistance? Even once..? No. I don't think so. Yet you just keep bugging me around that not even houseflies do.

-Your entire existence is just another vexation in my life-

The kind of Human traits

I won't say that it's his/her fault to be self-centered. I won't blame him/her for being an asshole. I'll just pity their friends, if they have any.
I'm a man, who can accept anyone easily, but sadly, I can't really reject someone.
Being a FRIEND is like, having a new family member. You don't just go and ruin it all by being a jerk. Who care if you're the eldest in your real family, who cares if you're the only son, when your in a new friend circle, don't try to act all high and mighty when you aren't at all.



-Fuck off S.O.B, go find another place to bark the shit out of you-